The smell of iodoform soaks
the room. Dim Christmas tree lights cast weak shadows on the walls. On a metal
framed bed pushed into one corner lies a woman. In another corner a teenage boy
sits on a wooden chair. The Virgin Mary looks down from a picture frame hung above
the bed. A phonograph plays faintly in the adjoining apartment.
The woman whimpers, her
body contorts. The boy rises anxiously to his feet. He crosses to the bedside
table and picks up a hypodermic syringe.
“Mother…?”
“No, not yet,” smiles the woman wearily. She
looks at the clock on the shelf. Not enough time has elapsed since the last
dose.
The boy has been with her
all afternoon. Through half-open eyes she has observed him, sometimes sketching
on a pad, sometimes softly weeping. She knows her illness has caused him great
sadness. He is a good boy, she reflects. She wishes her husband could have made
his peace with him before he died.
No-one has told her, but she
knows that she too is dying. Breast cancer detected too late. Mastectomy
performed too late. She has little faith in the doctor. She has less faith in
the iodoform treatment. The only one who can save her now is God. She has faith
in Him.
An hour passes and it is
time for the morphine. The boy administers it with a dexterity acquired over
the past eleven months. The woman settles back into a painless, dream-filled,
sleep.
She is back in the village
with her mother, standing in a lane that runs along the back of their cottage.
It is August and they are picking blackberries. The sun is shining and she is
happy.
Then she is on a farm at
the edge of another village. She is with her six-year-old son and they are
gathering eggs from the hen house. Her husband is working alone in the field
where the beehives are. The sun is shining.
Now she is in a house in a
town. Her husband and son are arguing. The sky is dark.
She wakens. She half opens
her eyes so that she can watch her son without him knowing.
He is sketching again. He
holds the pad out in front of him as he sits in the chair, his work illuminated
only by the faltering Christmas tree lights. She wonders what he is drawing. He
has always had this gift for art. If only her husband had appreciated this, maybe
they would have argued less. He would have seen him for what he was. A good
boy.
The boy looks away from
his pad and sees that the blanket has slipped from his mother’s shoulders. He moves
towards her to adjust it. As he does so, she emits a barely audible yelp of
pain. The effects of the morphine are beginning to wear off.
“Don’t worry dear mother,”
he reassures her. “Don’t worry. Your boy, Adolph, is here.”
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Jack McBride was born in Belfast and has spent
all his life in Northern Ireland, except for a year studying for a master’s
degree at Newcastle University. Now retired, he has had several articles/ short
stories/ poems published in on-line magazines and technical publications.
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